Lately I've been having lots of bad dreams. I wake up in the middle of the night totally sweating and my heart beating fast. Sometimes I even wake Peter up to help calm me down. It's ridiculous and I don't know why I'm having them. I have also been having lots of worrying thoughts about bad things happening to people I care about or getting a phone call that something horrible has happened. I double check the locks too often and I get more nervous than normal to drive when there is ice of the road. For some reason I have become more paranoid and I don't like it. Sometimes I wonder if it's because I'm just so happy that I'm worried it's going to go away soon. I don't know, but it's bothering me.

So in order to not focus on my worrying thoughts, I'm going to try and focus on what I'm grateful for. I hope to do regular posts on what I'm grateful for and what brings me joy.

HALIE and LUCY

These two I'm definitely grateful for. They are my sisters kids and I absolutely adore them. Halie is so sassy and so smart.

Lucy is hilarious and strong willed.

Whenever I am around these two I am always happy. They are so fun and they make me feel so loved. I work hard to be their favorite aunt, I just can't help it. I love them so much. For some reason I have been missing them so much lately as we live very far from each other right now and I don't get to see them as often as I would like. I'm just so grateful they are a part of my life and especially grateful they are a part of my sisters life, they have brought her so much joy and love over the years and I'm so grateful for that.